Sorry should mean something

Why is it that when you don't want them to be around, they are. And when you want nothing more than their attention, they are no where to be found... It must be some large conspiracy. I'm just plain tired of it. I'm tired of excuses. I'm tired of "I'm sorrys." (after a while they just don't mean anything.

I wonder if I'm just supposed to take the hint and move on? But I'm not sure it is a hint. And if he wants to break up with me, he needs to have the guts to do it! I don't want to let him off easy. Although, no one really likes to hear whats wrong with them.

Actually this one's going to be short and not so sweet. This girl is plum tuckered out. Ta-ta.

Rinse and Repeat

You blink. A year goes by. Blink again, you may just find yourself somewhere you never thought you would be. Is it good? Sometimes. Though the more and more "life lessons" you learn, you wish you could learn things without having to go through so much pain.

I guess pain is supposed to teach you where not to go, or what not to do. For instance, when we were all younger, our moms and dads taught us not to touch the burner on the stove. It's hot. Often times a child needs to be told these things over and over. What is it with children? Why can't they get it the first time?

The same thing could be said about adults too. Especially in relationships. Why didn't you learn the first time that guys are ridiculous?! (Ok, maybe that's a little harsh... ) But seriously, why does it seem that we are doomed to pick the same people? The same people that treat you like crap... and think, hey, that's ok... Soooo frustrating. It's NOT ok.

I am not some girl that's just going to wait in the wings for you to call on your fancy. I am way more important to chase you. As my niece would say, girls are Princesses (actually she would say Trinssess, but that's besides the point.) And as a princess I'm supposed to be treated with care, respect, honesty. Yes at least have the decency to be honest.

Sometimes, I wish that the biggest problem I had was not to touch the stove....

Love hurts way more.

The game of catch-up

I am super good at keeping this up to date. Yeah. Totally.

Anyway, I'm going to skip the lame excuses as to why I haven't written and just cut to the chase. Alot has happened in these past few months. I moved from my apartment in March to live with a family from my church. I wish that I could still afford to live on my own, but for now this gives me the opportunity to pay off my debt. Well at least some of it because we all know that student loans, especially from Houghton, will take for-ev-er.

I met a boy :) We've been dating since March and things are going along quite famously. We do have our ups and downs just like any other couple, but I think things will endure. I just have to get him to stay awake through a Red Sox game. :)

I got fired from one of my jobs. Yeah, that was fun. I blame myself for what happened, even though it was a complete accident. Oh well, God knows what he's doing. However, it is a very humbling experience to be fired. I don't like it one bit.

I'm still working overnights... which can be very draining. I do wish to find another job that pays more and is during the day, but there isn't alot out there that interests me. I thought of going back to school, but that would put me further into debt. So right now I either have to just bear it, or possibly start a job that I don't like. Good times.

Well I figured since my last photo was Christmas of 05, I figured I would put one in of Christmas of 06. Maybe I will get one up there soon of 07 ;) But who knows... I may not post for another 9 months. Ha ha.

Au revior.

Growing Up

When is it ok to grow up?

I pose this question in the midst of a world that is trying to stay young with every breath that goes by. Age-defying serums and fountains of youth are welcomed in the beauty industry. Young teens try to be older by dressing in ways that are way beyond what any person should be doing, which only breeds more of an immaturity. It's not that I'm saying that everyone should shed their playfulness or spontineity, but rather that they should own a sense of responsibility.

I'm unimpressed with people who blame everyone else for the way that they are and have no interest at looking at the true problem. Part of growing up is being able to take that introspective look and say, man I really screwed that up and then find a way to reconcile the indiscretion.

Time to stop being a Toy's R Us kid.

Wow

Almost a year has gone by.... crazy. More to come later.

Hey! I finally figured this picture thing out. :) Sorry it took so long Alisha. That's actually not the most recent one cause I didn't bring that cd with me, but I figured that it would work for starters.

The snow is falling and I'm thinking about how much I miss Kansas City in the summer time... well I can do without the extreme heat, but above 60 would be nice.

Nothing super new to report, other than my car has now cost me 2,500 in repairs... sadness. But God's faithful to provide and I know that the money will come from somewhere.

On a more serious note, if you could remember my parents in prayer, things aren't going so well. I'd rather not get into it on such an informal space, but yeah, God is a big God thankfully!

Much love. Me.

Wow my apologies

How quickly I can forget about things! I was just reading over an email from Amanda and I was like oh shoot! I have not blogged in for-ev-er. (A little sandlot humor for you)

Alisha, I would love to put up photos... I'll have to wait till I get to my parents house to do so though. I can't do it here at work. I've done a few fun things over the last month. My friend Christina from school came to visit me. We did alot of shopping, almost too much in fact. Christmas and New Year's went well. It was fairly uneventful... I did go bowling on NYE and lost pretty badly. That was quite the memory. I have gotten sick again. I think I need to sleep alot more.

Reading Amanda's newsletter really made me miss KC. I would love to come out again soon, but the finances are pretty low right now. I'm always keeping my ear open for what God wants me to be doing and where he wants me to be. I haven't heard anything different from NH yet, but I can't help but wonder, ya know?

Not much has changed... Stability is kind of nice, however, I'm finding that some things are getting mundane. Oh well. God's cool enough to meet me where I am. :)

Upcoming things... I'll be speaking to the youthgroup in Feb. about my testimony. Pray that the right things will come forth. I'll be playing/singing this weekend in Sturbridge, Mass. for a Women of the Word rally, and I'm hoping this cold will not effect that.

Friends, that's all for now.